This past week I closed my Facebook home page and promised my followers I would be taking up writing blog posts once again. For the moment I will be posting here every other week on Wednesdays. Maybe I’ll decide to write here every week, but for now I’m giving myself some extra space to grow into. Where any of this goes depends on my pulling my “now” together. I intend to begin changing and rearranging the pieces of my life that I have a tiny bit of control over.
I was encouraged by friends and told by publishing experts that if you write a book, you MUST have a page on Facebook in order to boost your sales. So I took the plunge. It was fun at first keeping up with my children and grandlings on a daily basis. There were friends, other artists and writers I followed that often sent inspiration my way. But for the last couple of years I’ve used any free time I had on Facebook swimming in the toxic pool of politics and losing my connection to our beautiful world.
The worst of it began in 2016 when the roof blew off my world. I quickly became addicted to watching the constant chaos in Washington, while I got more and more angry, anxious, depressed, and devastated. Watching it all unfold kept my mind off moving and packing and then the obvious unpacking. Then during the Kavanaugh doings, just a few weeks ago, I finally realized that if I didn’t stop, I would spend the rest of my days following and sharing whatever the news of the day was on Facebook, MSNBC, or CNN.
My anger was at a high point, and I took it out on those around me. My anxiety was over the top. I didn’t want to go out much or talk to anyone. I told myself that if I didn’t stop it, my body would shrivel up into an unusable mass of dying cells and I would get crazier and uglier by the minute. Like a drunk whose tired of what alcohol does to her, I decided to close my homepage on Facebook. I will keep my author page, posting cheery, interesting posts about writing and creativity.
Will I miss you? Of ocurse I will. But there are other ways of staying in touch. You can subscribe to my blog on my home page at, www.joanzrough.com, or by liking my author page of on Facebook. You could also send me an email by by clicking the contact button, again on the home page of my website.
I do have a new writing project that I’m excited about. I’ll tell you more about it in a future blog post, but for right now, I’m working on getting my daily schedule cleaned up so that I can add at least an hour every day for sitting in front of my computer, filling page after page with words from my heart.
I believe that spreading positivity and love is the way I can best serve myself and those around me to get through whatever the future holds. We all knew that there were big changes ahead and that the process of recalibrating our lives would not be pretty. Reconstruction takes time, patience, stamina and strength to move through the complications of reshaping a world gone bad. I will turn 76 years old next month. I can’t afford to allow myself to OCD on the news that our country failing and is no longer a democracy.
I’ve learned that by ignoring my here and now, I will miss the season of colorful leaves that are falling all around me as the season changes. I’d miss noticing the confused Magnolia trees, who think it’s spring, and are in their second lovely bloom this year, and of course the last of the hummingbirds coming through as they journey south for the winter. I don’t want to miss out on the laughter of children as Halloween creeps closer, and all of the things that inspire me to keep moving forward with smiles and a delightfully warm heart.
I do have hope for our world,
however, and absolutely will vote in a few short weeks.
I pray you will, too.